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Bennington Prompting Winter 2006

describe yourself

I am obsessive, self-invasive and self-critical. I am alone a lot, sometimes because my love is unable to be ripped from the stars I stare at in wonder, other times when it seems that every conversation is unattainable. I am complicated, insane, overly analytical, often vague or metaphorical. I have yet to grow into my own skin. There are rare times when I feel comfortable. I am awkward and clever; confident enough to speak when spoken to or performing for an audience. I have trouble with strangers but once initial barriers are broken & childish thoughts of "do they like me" fade to after-thoughts, I am a very open person and test relationships frequently with odd humor and references to discover shared interests. I am not fond of basic lists that describe interests, rather the gradual opening of semi-secret loves. The process of getting to know someone is best practiced in pairs, not in sloppy groups where most knowledge is second hand or overheard.
Do I live in a different time than now? I am not lacking in imagination. I do lack in time and seem to continually project myself into the future, past or a storyline. I live in a fantasy world that shifts with each book I read, movie I watch or song I listen to. I don't think I could ever settle down. (I'd just like a home-base.)